What and how B will cope with the rest of his life is what keeps me up at night. It is when I am laying in bed in the dark that my mind starts to wonder towards the future. I can sometimes rope it back and just concentrate on the next morning but there are those nights that I can't help but wonder what life will be like for him. Even if we can mainstream him and he is able to participate in "normal" school, he still has "quirks" that will not just go away, even with time. I wonder what he will be able to accomplish in his wonderful life and what role I will play in it. Will I be a main role like I am today, making sure certain things are done each day/week/month. Or will he be able to live on his own, hold down some sort of job and I can just check in with him weekly/daily to see how he is doing. I know that certain worries would be there even if he was completely normal, but the fact that he does face a lot of challenges keeps me up at night. I know that everything will play out as it should and I need to trust God that things will happen the way they should, but I can't help but worry. I am a HUGE worrier and this is just something else to add to my list. So as I drift off to sleep tonight, I will try my hardest to keep my mind on the fact that B doesn't have school in the morning and we can hopefully sleep in:)
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