It's been 11 months to the day since my last post. So much has happened. So much I am thankful for isn't written down:) January marked the beginning stages of my divorce and it will hopefully be completely over soon. I am so ready for that day. I'm ready to be done with all the drama divorcing brings. We will have our guidelines in black and white and we will both know what is expected of us. B has come so far in 11 months. I'm truly amazed daily by his efforts. I am currently checking into different therapy options to work on his aggression and self harming issues (hitting his face when he is mad or upset). This school year has improved his speech so much and he is really able to verbalize his wants and needs so well!!! Baby girl isn't a baby anymore and is settling in as the little sister very well:) she knows what she wants and doesn't let B push her around. In love with anything Frozen and girly. She is finally starting to make sounds and I can't wait to hear what she has to say. Now for me, I think I have made the biggest strides in 11 months. I got a job, my own car and finally a sense of self worth. It has been a huge growing experience and I am so happy to be so far down this road that I can barely see where I was when I moved here. I don't think I would recognize myself!!! I am learning and working on trust. It has been a huge issue in other areas over the last year and so now I am really trying to make an effort to trust people that consistently show they are trustworthy. This time of year is hard to not be sad a little. I'm grateful that I don't feel how I did last year this time, but I find myself wondering how all this really happened sometimes. I wouldn't change anything. My marriage brought me my kids and this divorce gave me myself back. It is just hard to not feel a bit down and honestly sadness for my kids who don't get to have a while family during the holidays. I know this type of grief is normal and it will lessen over time, so until then, I am going to focus on my kids and the reason for these holidays and keep my head up:)