Oh Christmas tree Oh Christmas tree

We put up our Christmas tree and it was really nice to spend that time with the kids experiencing all the Christmas magic. B did so well putting each ornament on the tree and like any 3 year old, they were all on the bottom in a group. It was such a normal thing and I loved it so much. I can't get enough of when he does something a kid his age would do. P was so cute picking up any piece of glitter that fell to the ground and was very fascinated with the lights on the tree. I had a great time but it was bitter sweet. In the back of my mind I kept thinking about what last years tree decorating was like and it was hard to not get sad, so I would just busy myself with the kids and let those feelings leave me as quickly as they came. It is starting to get easier the longer we go without much communication from their dad and I don't know how to handle that. I don't want to let go of all these feelings, but holding onto them for someone who can't even call for over 2 weeks to see how his kids are doing is pretty silly on my part. So as we enter this fun Christmas season that will be so much fun now that B is starting to understand the traditions that take place around this time, I am going to keep my mind in the moment and now dwell too much:)